So I wander away from the table to sit on the cement bench and gaze upon the ocean and boats. I try to imagine what one does to afford such luxuries and what it would be like to jump on one and sail the sea whenever you wanted.

The sun was setting. Evening is not far off. I was feeling emotional but couldn’t put my finger on why. The day started out nice and continued to get better and better, yet I’m failing to appreciate all that’s around me. I sit and think and pray for a changed attitude.

From out of nowhere a young guy sits next to me. Thing is, I’m feeling irritable, not sad which means his company wouldn’t be welcomed at all. But maybe, just maybe his company is what I needed.



It wasn’t!!! In essence he had nothing to say and what he said wasn’t keeping my attention. In fact, I was more focused on taking pictures of a blue crab crawling across the pier. I've must have taken 20 pictures of the crawlie...insane! Normally I’m all for lending a listening ear, but not then. He did make me laugh when he offered to take me running with him.



I told him I wanted to be alone. He said he would leave but told me to take his picture then write down his number so when I’m ready for someone to “keep me company” I should call him. The picture is to remind me of what I let go.

HA!!!!! REALLY??!!?? So..I took his picture. He asked to see it. When I showed it to him he turned and walked away without a word or giving me his number. As you can tell, I have zero tolerance for arrogance. Especially from some who’s young enough to be my kid.



Now alone…

Then the reason for my mood hit me. I’ve been here for SEVEN days and haven’t done anything on my Portland Wish List. How could that happen??? I was angry with myself for letting the days slip away so casually as if I were going to be here for months. Time is winding down, just like this day. Only soon I won’t be waking up in Jamaica to start a new one.

Pulled my notes and almost cried. This is not me. I thirst for new adventures…how could I deprive myself of that necessary quenching???

I’m not going to fall apart; I’m going to be aggressive perusing my plans.

Once I gripped that, I began to feel better. I need to have a true “Vi experience” soon.

Don’t know how this photo looks, but the clouds out that evening were amazing to see. I gave thanks for the “here & now” …looking forward to “tomorrow”.