Oh Timm - I am so sorry for your loss. I am glad you shared your feelings with us as we are family here and care about you. Thank you for posting photos. My heart is breaking for you. I had to put my pup to sleep after 15 yrs just 2 mths ago and I am still devastated so it will take time - so allow yourself that time. It is so hard to understand. Just know that you and yours are loved and I hope that brings some comfort. Peace be with you. Bless.