Clarity thank so much you are such a sweet heart and it looks as if you know what I was going through.. you are right with all the family get togethers for the holidays it really helps you to keep your mind off of things It's raining and gloomy here in Toronto today.. it's these days that make it harder I guess. With a bad month ending I just felt like I needed a vacation and not being able to go when I so desperately could have used it was hard to handle. Thanks for your encouragement and kind words. The people on this board never fail to amaze me with their kindness.