The manager here is Bigga. He and Gwen, and his family run this place, Shades Cottage. It's Google-able and Bigga responds to email within a few hours...so far I am very impressed with this operation! It's very informal; but I am sitting at the "kitchen/bar" where the have a fridge and all the items needed to chill-mixed drinks, etc. Red Stripes are $180 J, family style meal was $600 J.

Nightly cost is around half of what you could possibly pay in Negril...although there are sacrifices: like a hot shower. My cottage is my own for the time being, BUT in a certain week or night I could be sharing a bathroom...there is no pool...the ocean is a five minute walk, and two nice beaches (Bluefields and another free public beach) are within ten minutes walk. Not for everyone...but I like it a lot.

Bigga's family is always around, but not overbearing. There are dogs and trees and gardens. My porch is nice. I can always hear a rooster somewhere. LOL

Gwen just popped a coffee down in front of me and asked if I'd like scrambled eggs for breakfast. Ya mon!

My plan today is to go to the beach for sunset, and think about what's next for me. After losing Sarah...I haven't really done that. I guess part of moving on is letting go. That's gonna hurt, and it's beena process but somehow I am hoping that mighty sea can help me put a cap on some of it. I love that woman soooo much. There was that kind of love I am so afraid of never having again...and the shock and disbelief of losing her is still with me...I have to get rid of this black cloud that makes me sad and distant and get back to being myself. I tried this sunset idea last night, and it was hard. I don't want to do this. I know it's foolish. But once I say goodbye I am going to be truly alone. No one ever loved me like she did. What if no one will again? I planned on marrying "sarah" is Jamaica...she was coming with me this trip...the emotions are starting to well up so...enough for now...

It's gonna be me and the ocean today......