Brasi-
Your story is very touching and I hope that you let Jamaica put her arms around you and help heal your pain.

Go to the beach tonight at sunset, sit down and have yourself a good cry, then let those waves wash the tears away. Say your goodbye to Sarah but know that you will never truly be saying goodbye because she will always live on in your heart and in your memories......but you do need to come to terms with it. Make your peace and let time (and Jamaica) heal you. You can't rush the process, it comes in its own time and in it's own way......

As soon as you make room in your heart for someone else......someone else will move in. I truly believe there is someone out there for everyone, the problem usually is the walls we put up, or expectations we have, or timelines we give. Don't put thought or worry into finding someone to love or be loved by, just make room for them and then live your life, and that's when she will come!

Best of luck to you....enjoy your trip (we are surely enjoying it with you)