Brasi, I can feel your pain. I lost my first love many years ago, I thought I would never recover...although the event changed me forever.. I found healing by not trying to forget, but remembering the love and laughs we had. Keep her close to your heart, as others have said, Jamaica has been known to heal hearts and minds. What I have found is at some point you will find a reconnect in your dreams and for that short period of time you feel as if you are together again. I have woken up so happy at times because of these kinds of experiences, where I felt the closeness of my loved one in my presence. Never try to forget, try to accept and remember. Get everthing you can out of this trip, I am sure you will come back home feeling better than when you left.