First Stay On The Cliffs (Seastar Inn & Catcha) Trip report: Day 4 - 7

[negrilbay]

Thinking about you today, prayers to your friend and stay strong.

[Hubby-man]

Dark clouds have risen once again. Loss and the fragility of life were thrown into our faces once more as Daisy's very best and most treasured friend lay in a Coma, clinging to life by a thread

We found ourselves at her bedside, staring at machines and tubes, we had so many questions. Whether she was breathing or fed? how long she would be like this? when would she come out and open her eyes once again already? Would she die?

God must think we are quite stupid as he shows us the same lesson of loss and mourning time and time again. What the hell? ... Maybe we ARE just not getting the point. I stood there useless, trying to connect, my concern over whether my behavior was appropriate overwhelming my ability to be present in the unreal situation.

It seeps in, little by little. The fragility of it all, the omnipresence of an end in everything that ever begun. The miracle of anything ever being. The stupidity of ever taking anything for granted.

Some of you may wonder, why do these people take so much time writing their trip report?? Why don't they just sit down and get it over with instead of taking us on this obscenely long journey through their trivial vacation??

Hell I wasn't sure how to answer this either, ...until now. Now it all makes sense. I see how every moment in our lives is nothing but a miracle, an immeasurable treasure. All we can do is make a feeble attempt to hold on, or if not hold on, then to at least make a tiny effort to award the miracle with a bit of the awe and introspection it deserves to trigger.

Our friend, Michelle passed away yesterday morning...

I so wish I had a “trip report” written about Michelle. All the laughs and the tears and the mundane. Not for myself to read, not right now anyway, that would be to painful. No, but rather for the world to have some sort of evidence of this incredible individual that enriched our being here. Just so it wouldn't go so damn unnoticed. So that everyone, who might have the leisure, to go and take a fleeting look, would hear some echo of this person, who was here, who was so much, to so many.

I hope she knows how much she means to us. I hope that, in the superior state of consciousness, that the shedding of the body may bring, that she sees, what she has managed to be. That she was part of our lives is important to us,... soooo really, really important.



(Daisy snapped this group shot on New Years Eve, That's Michelle in the middle and that's how we always want to remember her... smiling and laughing, filled with the light and joy that has enriched all of our lives)

Thank you everyone for your supportive comments, prayers, and caring emails over the course of this week. It has meant a lot to us.

[Rasthai]

Hubby man, I feel so much for the loss you all have experienced, but I have to say I have never heard such true and thought provoking words as those you have spoken. Time and life are so fleeting And when we lose someone we can't understand how the world can just go on as if nothing happened. Your words will make me stop and appreciate more the amazement of life, of good friends and loved ones and your friend will never be gone because of your memories. Sharing such grief is immensely difficult but I thank you as it opens our eyes to what is really important. Again we are so sorry for your loss.