OK, after reading this entire post just now for the 1st time, I have so much to say but I will keep it brief.
I totally understand what is like to live w/ a negative person as a spouse,negative actions, negative words,trying to make you fell bad about your choices etc. I lived it for 3 looooooooooong years. It sounds like a short time, but in reality it's a life time when enduring verbal and emotional abuse. I went to Jamaica 2 times in our marriage without him,and it hit me. I am with the wrong man. I realized I can not waste another year of my precious life living this way. The last time I went to JA. I called him when we were waiting on our connecting flight in Charlotte coming home and it was so negative, yelling and screaming in the phone and it AMOST wiped all my irie feelings away. But in a nutshell, my divorce was officially final yesterday 3/7/12!!!!!!!!! The best day ever. FREEEEDOM from meanie, FREEEEDOM from negativity in the house, FREEEEEDOM to enjoy the beauty of life the way I feel it needs to be lived for me and my beautiful son. All I know is life is what you make it. I have a feeling this trip will be a HUGE eye opener for you. I hope you get everything you need out this trip, as a matter of fact I know you will. Jamaica never fails. I am excited about your future. Much loveBy the way, the kids are adorable. Sometime kids can give you all the strength you need, nothing like a mothers love.