Irie's attempt to get her groove back...TRIP REPORT

[Iriesistah]

I have made it home safely.
I am sorry to say that things are terrible for me at the moment.
I could really REALLY use some advise and some love at the moment, I am freaking out.

Things are so bad with my husband and I don't know what to do, where to turn.

While I was in Jamaica I ran out of money and had to call and ask him to wire me a little bit.
He refused at first but after a couple of days he ended up sending me $200.

Now I am home and broke as usual.
Tonight when he got home from work, I reminded him that I would need some money to pay my cc bills that will be coming due in the next two days.
He told me that he would not be giving me any more money until after the 1st of next month and that it wasn't his responsabilty to pay my cc bills.
Although, he has been giving me the money for the minimums for years now since I have been stuck home with the kids.

He also flipped out on me because I changed my phone over to the international plan so I could call home while I was in Jamaica, it was a $30 charge to change it.
He said that I had no right to change the phone plan and that it was suppose to be locked so that only he could make changes.
He called Verizon and had it out with them because they let me make changes to "his" plan. I thought that it was our plan, but once again apparently everything is his.

The list goes on and on...
I can't take it anymore.
I don't know what to do.
I feel lost and afraid.

My heart and soul are hurting so bad...