J - I am so sorry for this stress in your life. I think many of us can relate to having things come up in our lives making it hard to decide on our trips to JA. There have been times that I have decided not to go, knowing there would be future trips AND there have been times I went with a heavy heart and was healed (JA was part of it but really I had to look within and pray for guidance). I wish for you peace and joy. Just make your decision and then let the rest go as Janet so greatly suggested. Bless you and yours.