"Welcome Home" the adventure I thought I was prepared for.

[Beebeluv]

SUNDAY NOV.11th 2012

So I wake a little bit before 6 a.m. I'm super eager and pumped, I grab a piece of sub and go sit on our little balcony. WOW it's such a beautiful temperature outside it seems to be all the time. As I sit I take in the awe that is the sounds of the wildlife in Jamaica. It was more calming and beautiful than any zen CD ever created. I let my other sleep, he just looked soo tired and he was soo wonderful to me through our traveling fiasco. So I decided to make myself useful and make us some subs for the day. This must have been quite a spectacle. I made these subs using a lil LED flashlight which I held in my mouth and used my teeth to push the button. I didn't want to turn the lights on or open the curtains and disturb my other. After making several subs for the day I scooted the chair against the tile and that screech is what awakened my other... opps... So I say my good morning and he reciprocates and asks the time. I reply 7:20 a.m. I remember this vividly because it was our first full day in gorgeous Jamaica and...MY BIRTHDAY!!! So we hang around the room rather sluggish from the traveling (we are obviously are NOT used to it). By the time we actually get out and about its 9 a.m. We head to the breakfast buffet, A muffin and some yogurt and fruit for me. A big Jamaican breakfast for my other.

After we finish a very good breakfast we head up the stairs to make reservations for the a la Carte restaurants. At this point I still feel like I do at home, nervous, self conscious, your basic social anxiety. But I push to try to have fun on vacation. WE deserve it. So we make reservations for the steakhouse for this night at 9 p.m. (only time left) and for the Japanese the next night at 6:30 p.m. By the time we get done here its about 10:30 – 11 a.m. My other wants to take another less jet lagged look at the gift shop. So we do and I find this “beach bag” that I like it says Jamaica with the flag pattern for coloring. My favorite color is green, it has been for quite some time. OK so, My other and I decide to go back to the room so on our little walk we take in the property very nice place I loved it.


Anywho, we notice a coconut on the ground that's only a lil cracked at the top so we pick it up out of curiosity and wanna open it so we eventually get it open by use of the tile in our room lmao. EMPTY... dun dun dun. , So we put on our so called beach apparel and headed to get towels after the towel/ towel card exchange I realize I'm still uncomfortable...how frustrating. I am really bothered by this I wish I could just be free to be myself. I always tend to hold myself back inadvertently, I hate this regular occurrence. I truly am my own worst enemy... SOOOO.... We find our beach loungers and our spot and soak it up and try to relax and get used to things.