is a blessing u can speak / feel what u do. there is no "right way" in grief and we all go thru the stages in our own ways / time. is good 2 b mindful of ur true feelings ... u feel what u feel. there is no need to apologize for being tru 2 ur heart.
no one can truly know what u should / should not do / feel.....it is not their situation/journey.
b kind 2 yourself. b patient w/yourself....u took a huge step in ur travels. in ur own way, in ur own time, somehow u will find peace in your broken pieces.
thanx for sharing ur negril experience. happy u enjoyed g pineapple.
bless