Amerapress,
When you have figured out the "Certain its for good" part bottle it and I'll buy some. You'll be the wealthiest woman to have ever lived.
It seems contrary to your first post as you seem to feel far better about yourself, your partner and your life. One thing that is for sure is that Jamaica has Positive Vibrations. Even those that have very little (materially) always seem to find the bright side to any situation which reminds me of a saying "Count your blessings, not your problems". Sometimes easier said than done but by aiming high you always can hit your target. Life is a game of compromise and willingness to change to circumstances often times out of your control. Like the best words ever written "Live the life you love and love the life you live". Cool Runnings in JA