Anyone could tell by your last flurry of posts that Jamaica was wearing thin on you. Jamaica has a way of doing that sometimes. I stopped going for a couple of years after some incidents in my personal life made Jamaica a little less appealing to me. I think that after time Tattoo might feel the same.
When your life away from Jamaica starts to add to your feelings about Jamaica then it is time to regroup and make a real attempt to fix things. I wish you the best of luck in all your endeavors, Tattoo.
Peace and Guidance